Who Doesn't Hate Their Job?

I am doing better guys. I sincerely am. I decided that once the summer semester starts I will go back to counselling. This way I have a little more to look forward to. I am currently in the middle of finals and I am just a tad bit more stressed than usual. I am more concerned with coming out of by anatomy class with a B. Especially since I am taking this crazy class for the second time now. But I just need to finish this research paper first. I don't speak to many of my friends lately, mainly because most of us just have been busy. I actually wanted to fly out to see a few of them, but that's not really possible so hopefully I can figure something out for the summer.

I am currently friends with my ex boyfriend again. I might go into details of that at a later time, but at least now I can look forward to this new found friendship. But I don't think that I want us to be together again.

There is not type of organization to this post. I am just writing to write! So forgive me.

I have a new job as a waitress. Tips are good, I make more money on tips from a few days than I did in an entire week at my other job. Yet it is a lot of work, and extremely tiring. I'm not sure if I can do this for two more years. I think the idea of doing anything for that long is frightening to me. So I try to focus on short term goals.

If everything goes as planned as far as school goes I will be done with this school August 2017. Which is annoying because I could of had my bachelors May 2016. But have to play the hand life gives you. Once I graduate and make money to save up I am moving to Atlanta. I don't even care that most of my friends most likely wont live there anymore. I just really love that city.

I really want to graduate or start the nursing program. At least I can start working where I want to work. So maybe come the start of 2016 I will have a new job somewhere I like. Then can move out in my own apartment or something. I just started but honestly I want a new job. I just can't deal. I miss the days when all I had to worry about was being in college. Man I tell you, if I had a time machine I know EXACTLY where I would go and what I would do. I just really miss being around my friends.

Good Vibes

I know that quite a few of my posts seem depressing. But I don't want people to think that I am always a depressing person. I just tend to write up here when I am having strong emotions. Lately the strongest emotion has been sadness. But this past weekend was amazing. It also gave me new found hope for the future, and more determination than ever to push through and finish school.

This past week was home coming week for my previous school. I really have been missing my friends. The only thing is most of my friends are still at the school, my older sister lives in Oklahoma and a couple of my other friends graduated. Therefore, homecoming would be a perfect way to see them all at once since I can't afford to fly out everywhere.

I hung out with my close friends all weekend. We made so many drinks and went out to parties and what not. Mind you, I haven't seen them since March so I could not stop smiling the whole time. I got to double dutch with an alumna lol, I posted tons of pictures and videos on my social networking accounts...but I guess unless you know who I am you wont be able to see them.

But I'm not going to tell you in great detail everything that happened the entire weekend because that would just take too long. But I will tell you the best and most anticipated part of my weekend. That would be FINALLY seeing my sister. Now it has been 7 whole months since I last scene her ( which is the longest we have been apart since we got close). My plane came in too late for me to see her on Thursday, Friday she was hanging out with her other friends, leaving Saturday.

Saturday was tailgate and there were thousands of people. There were so many people that my phone absolutely sucked and I barely had any service. So I figured that I would bump into her as I walked around with my friends. We are few hours into tailgate and I am drunk; not sloppy drunk but drunk enough. I went to get something to eat and as I walked back to my friends I finally saw her standing there talking to them. I ran over as fast as my little intoxicated legs could and bear hugged her. I was so excited to see her. But I can't completely remember what was said. But I do remember starring at her trying to etch what she looked like into my brain because I really didn't want to forget. But the moment was really brief because she had to run somewhere and I wanted to sit and eat.

I was very content. As it started to get later my friends and I were planning on leaving and going somewhere else. But then I was like, oh snap...I don't remember seeing ****. I was starting to sober up but not fully. So I was telling my friends how I need to find her and they agreed to help look for her really fast. But there were so many people  and before I could take two steps to look for her I started crying (lol). My friends were like, oh shit, this girl doesn't cry in public; we really need to find her.

So we are searching and searching and I start to loose hope. But then I heard someone say "look who it is". Sure enough they found my sister! I don't remember if I ran up to her or not. But all I know is I was hugging her and she was really there. I did not want to let go because this time I was determined to remember this moment. My friends took tons of pictures of this long hug. We talked for a bit, but eventually we had to go our separate ways.

But that was one of my favorite and happiest highlights from this past weekend.