"So Unsure of This Skin I've Slinked In"

My heart is tired. The wall around it is weighing heavy not only on my heart but on my soul. No matter how many times I exhale, the literal pain will not go away. It's that feeling that you have when you are really sad/frustrated/angry/tired/mad but you are not expressing your emotions. You are holding everything in and it is pounding at your chest, waiting to be set free. But for me there is not an exit. I have not found one yet. This all really hurts. Nothing is helping. I am still desperately fighting against this pain. Crying isn't helping anymore. I am just so tired. I just want to scream, have a rush, do something to feel normal again. The quiet sounds are not safe. My soul is VERY strong...but my heart is weak. ...What is wrong with me?